#a little update of my post about my blog

[olivia-blogs-stuff]

Haiiiii ^_^ hi!! hiiiiiii <3 haiiiiiiiii hii :3

Welcome to my blog :3

(if you don't like me, i don't like you either)

(i won't bite you if you don't bite me first)

New account because my old account got deleted and don't even ask why...

(tumblr was a bitch, and probably deleted my old one)

-my name is Olivia

-i'm 17 years old

(older in the drawing so that anything legal)

-my bday is on 7th november (plixie month)

-my prononus are:

she/her and they/them

(but i prefer she/her prononus)

-i'm bisexual and fictiosexual and hypersexual and demigirl

-pochodzę z Polski (🇵🇱)

-digital/traditional artist (mostly digital)

-multi-fandom bc yes

(i mostly make fanart but sometimes... I draw my ocs when i'm bored)

-i mostly make sfw art but sometimes i making suggestive and Gore art

(pls, don't hate me)

-do not copy/trace/repost my art and Animations (anything!!)

(reblogs,inspirations and edits are allowed, but pls tag me)

-spam likes and reblogs are fine, i don't mind

-I'm fucking minor lol

-i'm kinda tall (162cm)

-i use ibispaint to draw and flipaclip to animate

Pls dni if:

-Under 13

-proship/comship

-map/pedophile

-izrael supporters

-terf

-groomer

-person who make jokes about rape and s/a

-skidibi toilet fans (i hate This fucking Shit)

-Zoophile/animal abuser

-racist/fatphobic

-homophobic/transphobic

-anti-furry/anti-therian

(leave them Alone)

-lolicon/shotacon

-etc

-or if you just bad person, i won't talk to you anymore

⚠️pls dm me if i follow someone bad⚠️

13+ only (16+ sometimes)

Also do not reblog this, bc that's my rules

-remember that whatever I say...it's just a stupid fucking joke and it shouldn't be taken seriously

and if you don't understand my jokes (my humor) pls get the fuck out...

I'm not pervert but....DAMN!! Ass and boobs are cool for me~😏

also google translator is a bitch, but i use it anyways because my english is very bad...

Oki i Think its a all bye ^^

[thebad-lydrawn-sanses]

Creator: Mm, art block. What to do...?

Creator: What do you think, wackus bonkus?

"Wackus Bonkus" (Hand): make angst

Creator: ohh, you naughty wackus bonkus

[boxwinebaddie]

uncle neen!!! welcome back omg i was so sad to see u disappear </3 hyh !!! i had a question i asked last time but i was wondering since ur rewriting ur fics, are u planning on posting them on tumblr? or on ao3? pls be kind to urself too<33

good MORNING, lovie!!!!~ <3 c':

( or whatever time it is, where you are at the moment! )

i'm very excited to announce that you are my very FIRST new ask message on my brand new blog!

( teri is my first follower; ly ter. <33 o//3//o )

***long overdue UN ramble-bramble under the cut. xx

i /do/ miss my six hundred bajillion ask memes and am mourning the loss of all my online creations and great joys as a deranged southpark fanfiction author and the legacy i built with my tiny, gay weird hands

( i will go into it another time, but i had a very, very frightening bipolar episode surrounding my blog and my role on here as a writer, friend and mentor to you all, deleted all my things in a horrible panic, was able to recover them...but in the -- what i hope is the *very last* -- after shock of my episode...i got very scared, very sad and deleted both my dearly treasured and beloved, beautifully cult followed by many of you and other ghosts of sp style fanatics past ao3 account**

**( with peppermint on it at 13k likes which...oh my god, please be gentle with me, that was a very, very hard blow and rough realization for me and i am sorry to everyone who loved that fanfiction and wanted to go back and read it for posperity and personal comfort...i miss her too; rest in peace, pep, my first born. my sweet girl. </3 )

...and most tragically of all, i deleted my tumblr blog, with over one hundred pages of carefully curated content surrounding my sp aus, your lovely, insightful and thoughtful questions and inquiries, also typed with your tiny, weird gay hands answered, in turn, with mine, torched the ev. of those memories in the final blast and lost my window into your world through that medium...

...which is literally heartbreaking to me, because more than even my silly fanfictions or my blog, what i loved to do, was talk to all of you and read your wonderful messages each day and remind myself of why i should be here and continue to do what i do. </333 :'''c

BUT! my darlings, as ravenstan would say, 'it's always darkest before crimson dawn', for the very first time in several weeks ( which, i fear, and i was, full of fear and horrible self loathing/dread every waking and nightmarish moment ), last night, i cried for a very, very, very, long time, held myself together in the broken places -- told myself and the girl i was that i loved her and i was going to take care of us and be brave -- and broke the fever ( a little off key like jersey kyle, but very lovely nonetheless; love you tone deaf king. x my sboyf. )

today, i woke up this morning and slept...PEACEFULLY and woke up PERFECTLY HAPPY AND RESTED...

AND SMILED. QUITE. WIDE!!!!~ :D

and that is a baby step, but it is a step in the right direction and also almost wanted to make me weep like a baby again because i literally have not felt happy or like i do not hate myself for like, i shit you not, over like 15-20 days...it was frightening and fucking horrible! SLAY!

nevertheless ( or the most, finally ) i am excited to welcome in a new era/year of change on my blog and within myself; which is an era of peppermint flavored 'hope i'm healing' in a delicious rem(ember) font.

unfortunately, because i nuked my ao3 account, i do not currently one atm, but am in the process of recovering it.

( i'm not condoning any kind of rude/uncivilized behavior bc people are allowed to do anything they want -- but i'd really like to get my user back and would appreciate it a lot if no one used it to create another ao3 account just because it would be confusing for my readers and disheartening to me to not be boxwinebaddie anymore. )

until then, i will be writing/drafting rem(ember) in my messy google docs, am storyboarding everything to the best of my ability ( which is not perfect, but nothing is -- except stan and kyle to each other -- but god loves a trier, which is why he hates me: i prefer hell where it's drier -- that way my girlfail guylinea will not run. xx )

KALE SEITAN! ;)

posting little snippets of it on here for all of you, probably put it here on my tumblr and post it up to ao3 if i can regain my account/one in general ( i am a little worried that because of how long it's been, the loss of all my followers and, what i assume, is a decreased public or tiktok generated interest in sp, it will do poorly; rip </3 )

-- but the point is...that i want to start doing stuff for myself now. and not because i think i should or create unnecessary stress/sadness surrounding my strength or weakness as a writer or person ( or like, beat the living shit out of myself every single day anymore )...

...so i am writing it slowly, carefully, synthesizing all the info i gathered from over a year of answering your questions ( which helped me develop my sp au styles and their worlds into the lovely, seemingly breathing paper machslayed things they are now ), am going to write the fanfiction i always/wanted/ to write ( i’ve always wanted to rewrite RM, but was so busy and overwhelmed with my blog/my irl stuff that i couldn't )

and i'm calling it...

<3

p.s. ( i love you ): i am going to give my grandmother a copy of the first chapter of peppermint for christmas because i wanted to do something special/sentimental for her and secretly push the gay middle school style agenda ( she is actually very woke and thought my uncle might be gay for a while when he was younger, haha xx ), but i want to give them different names, so that on the off chance it gets passed off to my mom, my dad or manages to travel by world of mouth ( my grandma has a tendency to gab, but i love her a lot ) that it can't specifically be traced back to my dead ao3 or my blog.

so if any one has any ideas for silly interesting names i could give my sons, names for other characters or south park in gen. hit me up! <33

thank you for your interest in my work -- and in me, in general. i love you all dearly, i hope you heal ( i know you will ) and smile, pendejos because got a lot coming up on that crimson dawn and a lot of crazy shit coming down on that *jersey i won't say i'm in luh megara vc*

~SCHARLET sLUt~

cheers! mazel! ;) xx

-uncle nina, in her healing era <3

[silenceofthewave]

( hrgggggg this blog needs an overhaul but that is so difficult to do on mobile....... )

[therianimal]

Musings on Psychosis

I realize now that my vampire 'type was a product of a psychotic episode that lasted throughout 2023. That episode has ended and it's been strange having certain perspectives of myself wrenched away from me. For around a year I was, perhaps, an endel in the immediate sense, but I wouldn't venture to call myself that now. It's hard for me to define now what vampires are to me. My general fascination with them is still there, and I remember the identity, shifts, and species dysphoria I experienced acutely, but that sense of self is distant now. I'm torn on whether I consider "vampire" to be a part of myself now - I know I certainly don't with the same intensity that I felt in psychosis. For a year I identified myself with monsters, werewolves, villains, and various morbid topics, and coming out of that was a harsh experience. In some ways I am no longer the person I was prior to the episode, or the person (monster/beast) I was during. All the changes psychosis has put me through have been unsettling - having it warp and change my identity on a confusingly temporary basis has been chaotic and deeply overwhelming.

I see a lot of endels and other psychotic folk on here with presumably permanent identities and sometimes I wonder whether anyone else has had experiences like mine. Especially those with episodic conditions like my schizophrenia/schizoaffective, where severity of psychosis changes over time and there may be periods of remission. I'm medicated, now, but I don't know for sure that this will never happen again. That I will never "become" a vampire again, or become some other species my psychotic brain decides to latch on to. My identity is fluid, and only after years of confusion have I realized that this fluidity is the product of a schizo-spectrum disorder. Maybe next time my identity has a total overhaul I'll recognize it as a psychotic episode - or maybe I'll be in too deep to realize, again.

[officially-other]

Still alive! And what I've been doing.

So, I got COVID so I was gone for a while lol. That sorta put me out of commission for a bit. However, I have been starting to explore some more draconic stuff lately! Specifically, I'm in the planning phase of a VERY long term project for wearing more clothes that feel affirming to me. I have a Pinterest board, no previous experience in any of the skills I'll need, and Aphrodite* backing me up so I'll be fucking around and finding out. *I work with Greek deities as a witch, for those of you who only know me as otherkin and not as a witch^^

As I work to reconnect to my spirituality, my draconity, and my life in general- seriously, holy shit I was frothing at the mouth to do ANYTHING by the time I was feeling better- I'll be a bit wonky when it comes to how much I'm posting. I have managed to post the second chapter of my genshin fic though so I'm really happy about that!

[ask-modern-patrochilles]

*out of context*

where are you? why you dont do you update anymore? everything alright? luv ya

[Hi! I’m doing alright so no need to worry, I’m just taking a small break and should be updating again very soon. Thanks for your patience! ❤️]

[the-moon-files]

You alive?

Yes! 😭😭

I am just VERY slow, bc i moved seveal states over, i got a new job, started a new online class, its been a busy month, so yeah 🥲

Feelin this gif type of way rn, im starting to get a regular life schedule so i can have some time to write

But tysm for checking in!! Its nice to know ppl will check if im dead lol

I am waking up at like 530/6am during the week tho so idk i might be bro lmao

I was actually planning on posting tonight or tomorrow!

So caught me just as it was getting too long to have made a post to show im alive lol

I live, peace out,

🌙

[bajablastwrites]

No I haven’t forgotten this blog!

WHY IS THERE 900 OF YOU PEOPLE HERE I HAVENT POSTED ANY ACTUAL CONTENT IN OVER A YEAR😭💀

I VANISHED WITH 700 AND NOW 200 MORE PEOPLE FOLLOWED ME

[chryblossomjjk]

…

[the-holy-ghosted]

sighs pitifully. i have GOT to get weirder on main about things nobody fucking cares about

[curiouselleth]

Hi!

Here I post a lot of Silmarillion and Tolkien stuff, sometimes a bit of Dragonlance as well.

I'm a writer and an artist so I will sometimes post fanfic or art too!

Asks are always open and welcome, whether about my writing, other assorted projects, or anything else!

Fanfics:

Be He Foe or Friend (ao3),

A Silmarillion choose your own adventure book!!! Post about it. This is my biggest project in progress right now! Tags: "be he foe or friend" "bhff"

Unable to See the Starlight (ao3) (tumblr)

A short memoir of a elf who lived through the darkening of Valinor. Tags: "unable to see the starlight" Completed.

Veil of Starlight (ao3) (tumblr)

Elured is Gil-galad AU. I have 3 random snippets: [1] [2] [3]* Tags: "veil of starlight" "VoS" In progress. *Snippets listed in order posted, not order they happen in the story, which is 3, 2, 1.

How Can We Heal? (ao3) (tumblr)

A different take on the Halls of Mandos, and Finrod's experiences there. In progress.

What We Became (ao3) (tumblr)

The blood of Sauron's wolves unravels minds. Sauron decides to experiment with the little king who dared to challenge him. In progress.

Organizational tags I use:

"I need more floortime" - Personal post tag.

"my writing" / "my art"

"about my writing' - just that, posts, asks, and tag games about my writing, and often times snippets I post for tag or ask games will have this tag as well.

I also tag all my fanfics with their name, ex: "veil of starlight", and sometimes an abbreviation of their name.

Up to date as of 5/7/24

[batdiangelo]

SoTFD themed blog?

Would anyone be interested in a blog just about SoTFD?

I’ll check back in later

[alfhildr-the-word-weaver]

Shoutout to my Monkees mutuals for reminding me about the Monkees and their music; now I'm thinking about how She is such a season 2 Damon talking about Katherine song.

Meanwhile, 1864 Damon is of course firmly Vampire Girl by the Misfits (he would die for her, and he did).

[chibishortdeath]

Hmmm I kinda want to make a side blog for RPG Maker game development related things to be able to talk to more experienced people in that community, but at the same time I both don’t really think I’d get much attention and don’t want to accidentally spoil my own game (^^ ; ).

I have a rough story, concept doodles, a tileset, some character sprites, an enemy that walks around but can’t initiate battle yet (if I even decide to have a battle system), a couple rooms with some events, and a functioning run button, but I’m still lost on how to do much else at the moment. Especially since this program has the ability for scripting, meaning I’ll probably have to learn and actually retain another coding language.

So, I’m not very far at all lol. Idk how well that’d go over on the established fandom website, but eh.

[moreawesomethantheaveragepossum]

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